God, I am so happy. And grateful. I know that I may sound super lame, maybe I won’t even post this, but I just wanted to leave a trace while I’m in this state, cause afterwards....you know, memory alters things, makes them worse or better or simply sucks out details and nuances that give so much to a situation. I feel a deep peace and tranquility, a subtle sense of knowing that everything is just the way it has to be and that everything is happening for my higher good. I am grateful to be in this magnificent place, surrounded by nature, away from all the modern craziness that I am surrounded by most of the time and spending these precious, rare, but therefore so much more intense moments with the person I love, being treated like the most special and important being in the whole world.
It all makes sense now, you know. All shitty relationships, all tears and hurt and everything that I attracted at the time... “We accept love we think we deserve.” I heard this so many times, but just now I understand it fully. It is true. If you are getting treated like shit by people in your life, it is very probable that you haven’t been treating yourself very nicely, because all the relationships in our lives are just mirrors. They mirror conflicts within ourselves, they incarnate the beliefs we hold onto that may limit ourselves or allow us to expand - the choice is all ours. The beliefs, no matter how deeply rooted, are not fixed and can be altered. However, you must face them, get clear about their presence and character in order to start changing them. How would you get a proper medicine if you didn’t know which part of your body is ill? It’s the same with this stuff.
I don’t know if any of this makes sense... but nothing really does, right?
Hope you’re having an amazing February <3
Love, Maja